Ed Miliband's Happy New Year to the Hardest Hit

Now Ed Miliband gets tough with onslaught against "evil" of benefits scroungers

Happy New Year to the genuinely sick, disabled and hardest hit in society.

Labour joins ConDem's vicious rhetoric of recent months, tarring everyone genuinely unable to work, or unemployed through lack of jobs in the current economic cuts, with the same stigmatising brush as the 0.5% of claimants who aren't genuine.

Why don't they root out this tiny minority once and for all? So the genuine, struggling 99.5% of citizens can be freed from vitriol and opprobrium they have never deserved?

Either this article outlines a parroted-for-votes, tabloid-licking ignorant whine that shows no basic understanding of issues we expect from the politicians we all elect, or it is sinister in the extreme. This is not even an intelligent ploy to win Labour votes!

Evil or plain stupid? You can't have it both ways.

Many today are exasperated beyond measure, from every shade of the political spectrum. The "facts" here are hyped half-truths and downright lies. The real policies to move us forward are conspicuous by their absence.

What a cruel joke to remember how Kaliya Franklin (@Bendygirl) used all her strength, persistence and perspicacity to show Miliband the difference between "scroungers" and the genuinely disabled and chronically or fluctuatingly sick. Watch again, incredulous as you may be after today's U-Turn from Ed Miliband's moral compass here 

Kaliya Franklin, from her wheelchair at the 2011 Labour Party Conference last September, won the argument with Miliband so recently, he cannot possibly claim to have forgotten his pledges and promises in the wake of their meeting so soon. Shame on him.

Here he blithely regales us with his New Year Message for 2012:

"When politicians shrug their shoulders in the face of other people’s despair, they are not just abdicating responsibility, they are making clear choices. That is as true now as it was in the Great Depression during the 1930s." Politics can make a difference: Ed Miliband New Year Message

With the quote above, he surely writes his own political epitaph.

With no difference now discernible between the major parties' lines about the most vulnerable in society, we must look elsewhere for compassion to carry us through what we can be sure are desperate days. Days that put me in mind of words ex-Laureate Ted Hughes wrote in his poem 'November', still true about the trials faced by so many this January.

Only Hughes was just capturing the merciless weather. Animals caught by poachers or gamekeepers hung helpless but stoical on a fence. This is hate treatment meted out to vulnerable, ordinary human beings with no redress or resources to fight back, in many cases. But the tide has to turn one day.


In the drilling rain. Some still had their shape,
Had their pride with it; hung, chins on chests,
Patient to outwait these worst days that beat
Their crowns bare and dripped from their feet.

You don't understand M.E. - on The Wright Stuff

Thus runs the blurb for a slot on Matthew Wright's "The Wright Stuff" this morning. It's about the latest study on M.E. and school absenteeism:

'Part 5: You Don’t Understand M.E.!
Then: You don’t understand M.E! A new study suggests one in 100 school kids are battling chronic fatigue syndrome, a major reason for absence. What’s more most are undiagnosed which is perhaps not surprising as the symptoms include extreme tiredness, lapses in concentration and mood swings. It’s clear a lot of you want to talk about ME and the way the rest of us react to it, so that’s what we’ll do.'

Sorry this has adverts. Sorry it needs scrolling through till you get to the M.E.bit. For once, IT WILL BE WORTH IT! (It's after the 4th ad-break from about the 52nd minute onwards).

I was frankly sceptical before I managed to watch it on Channel 5 catch-up. We've had our bellyful of tomfoolery, after all, haven't we, with yesterday's offerings from the Food Hospital?
I only noticed it when it was mentioned on an M.E. chat group.

So I waited till I'd recovered from a lovely but exhausting Christmas visit from friends who really DO understand M.E. Then I tuned in, all but peeping between my fingers from behind the settee. Well, lying on the settee, anyway.


IF YOU WATCH NOTHING ELSE THIS CHRISTMAS, PLEASE WATCH THIS! IT'S THE MAINSTREAM M.E. COVERAGE YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALL YOUR LIFE!
You Don't Understand M.E. on "The Wright Stuff" Channel 5 15th Dec 2011


Matthew argued it was "still the most misunderstood" illness in a build-up link earlier in the show, so I took that as hopeful! By the end I was almost weeping with thankfulness and joy!

Snippets include: Matthew Wright saying M.E. has been "given horrible nicknames in the past". He made the effort to pronounce myalgic encephalomyelitis correctly and list many of the symptoms over and beyond fatigue.

There was sympathetic balanced comment on the "confusion" over the disease in the popular imagination. Virus, glandular fever, genetically inherited, cycle of good and bad times, crippling - you'll hear all these words spoken with true feeling! A miracle in itself!

Esther Rantzen and Emily were shown in a photo (from the Mail Online site - but don't despair!). Guest Anne Diamond only said how she considered Esther a tuned-in mum, so she took seriously that this was a real crippling disease.

It was questioned, considering all that's known about M.E., whether it was feasible, as this latest study claims, that early diagnosed teens can get well from this in 6 weeks.

So refreshing to hear the tone of the discussion and helpful content being broadcast to the nation. Excuse me if my hasty notes are a bit sparse. I know you'll want to listen for yourself, when well enough, anyway!

 Why not listen to it as an early Christmas presie to yourself? It'll get you in the mood to celebrate even if you can't raise your head off the pillow!

Anne Diamond spoke from a parent's point of view. The need to know when something is just teenage malaise, and when it is the serious neurological disease M.E. I couldn't get used to all the worried, shocked expressions on the faces of the panel and the audience alike as they heard the truth, many of them for the first time!

Anne said there was evidence (evidence!!! wheeeeee!) that there clearly is something there. She compared it to her personal experience and campaign for recognition of Cot Death. Cot Death used to be pooh-poohed too, but is now recognised and taken very seriously.

Another guest, Steve Furst was asked if it might be psychosomatic, but countered at once that understanding is in many ways embryonic, so that's not something people can assume at all. Genius!

It's all about education, I believe one of the panel said. Oh yes, it is! Amazingly, this programme has been the best thing I have EVER seen, for educating the wider public and dismantling the rubbish that's the usual fare we're served about M.E. in the media, in doctor's surgeries and elsewhere.

It was said, from the study, the implication is that it is easier to treat if caught early. Later diagnosis means the disease can have had a hold, doing untold damage for many years.

Then they took three callers on the phones. All three wonderful callers made the time left really count, and none of us will be able to thank them enough. Not a word was wasted.

Jo (32) from Dorset had been diagnosed at 15 when doing her GCSEs. She told of being bedbound for a year and needing to use a wheelchair at times, her mum having to carry her up the stairs. You could see the guests wince at the revelation of such real suffering. Jo explained articulately that although much improved, she didn't consider herself cured even now, and had an "awful immune system". They concluded that if it's M.E. then, it's unlikely it could be cured in just 6 weeks! It was acknowledged that depression, suicidal thoughts, mental anguish only follow from the unremitting severe suffering, and are not a cause of the disease. Jo had improved after having an op on her ovaries, but nobody knew if this was connected. Just like a friend of mine who is in remission from severe M.E. after cancer treatment. One day we will know if these other treatments are affecting the body systems attacked in M.E.!

Jo said she had lost most of her friends, who grow tired with waiting about for someone who can rarely join in.

Duncan from the Orkney Islands was the second caller. His wife is ill with M.E.He explained how short term memory loss is one of the long term side effects she suffers. This makes it impossibly difficult to hold converstions on the phone. How familiar does this sound? How refreshing to hear the truth spoken to help everyone out there to begin to understand. Comments came from the panel like "Shattering!" "Terrifying!" "The lack of help!" and "To be treated as if there's nothing wrong with you!" The message was certainly hitting home at last, with not a nay-sayer in sight!


Will was the third and final caller and also spoke so well. Matthew Wright was genuinely sorry, wishing they had more time for the subject. The studio phones were apparently ringing off the hook. He ended the segment, regretfully, by saying he couldn't think of a phone-in so disquieting. He finally promised, "We will do it again!"

I promise this one will restore your faith in at least a section of the media. I hope the awareness it has begun to raise will be the biggest winter snowball ever. I hope, like me, it brings you hope and joy this season! XXX

M.E. in the Media: A Little Nut Who Held its Ground (Irony Intended!)

Wessely's "Mind the Gap" article in 'The Spectator' 27th August 2011 with many interesting comments

This was the upsetting, quite devastating article we woke up to yesterday. Just in time to celebrate a peaceful Bank Holiday weekend in the UK. More of Professor Simon justifying his position and earlier high-profile articles in the UK press.

August has been quite a month. It's often called "the silly season", isn't it? The summer news-slump when all sorts of wacky, weird and wonderful stories hit the headlines while the world is on holiday and needs a break from the heavy stuff?

For us who are genuinely sick with M.E.,who don't ever get a holiday from its devastating effects, this proved to be a bouncing bomb of a story, frisking along gaining momentum through August with poisonous and dispiriting ripples spreading out beyond the visible horizon. Some of us were reduced to tears. Positive, witty, resilient souls reduced to sobs of despairing shock. Not again? No more surely? Where will this all end?

On Twitter, on Facebook, and other social internet outlets, M.E. patients kept each others' spirits up and found ways, by humour or by putting together responses to the half-truths being perpetuated here and elsewhere, of seeing a way forward together. I am so thankful for the strength and gracious, clear-sightedness of other M.E. bloggers, Tweeters and like minded friends on the Internet. 


Some of the responses to Wessely's latest oh-so-reasonable, avuncular cant gave me solace. If you click the link above, there is even a measured response from another psychologist who has personally felt the sting of a backlash (Wessely's amorphous "death threats") from activists who themselves haven't got M.E. but use the frustration of M.E. patients abandoned by the medical establishment, as an excuse for unleashing their vitriol. Yet she still sees that Wessely's psychogenic aetiology model for M.E./CFS is essentially flawed from a scientific point of view.

Other comments bear witness to the professor's shortness of memory on treatments he authorised a quarter of a century ago, but in the article distances himself. Treatments to expose the "playacting" of a child with M.E. and the role his concerned parents allegedly played in perpetuating his illness. We are all aware that 'sectioning' of M.E, sufferers still occurs throughout the 'civilised' world.

Many of us have respectfully tweeted journalists jumping on the bandwagon. Pointing out inaccuracies. Pointing out poor logic. Begging for a bit of integrity and balance in these articles. I had no sooner tweeted Max Pemberton about his own deeply insulting and truth-bypassed article in the Telegraph:

@MaxPemberton: 'Many claim that their condition is the result of..' Patients make no claims.They're diagnosed! Shockingly inaccurate #mecfs

than the said article seemed to have been withdrawn. [Update: the article WAS published in the Telegraph on Bank Holiday Monday 29th August 2011]. Others within the M.E. community were also pointing out the factual errors in many of his words.

It was then that I learnt that a link is only good while the newspaper involved has the linked article available! Someone else on Twitter asked if I could point them in the direction of the Pemberton diatribe. I couldn't find it when I clicked my saved link to the Telegraph again! A bit like Orwell's Big Brother in '1984' rewriting history to suit the powers that be and leaving us wondering helplessly if we were just hallucinating. We can't afford, in the current hostile climate, to be tricked into thinking it's us who don't know what we're talking about! It's really NOT all in our minds!

We can be thankful, at least, that the Pemberton hackery stayed in cyberspace and did not go to print. [Update: Sadly, it did - Telegraph 29th August 2011]. For those who blinked and missed it, the wonderful team behind XMRV Global Action was clever enough to transcribe the article, before it was snatched from scrutiny, here:


XMRV Global Action's note of the text of Max Pemberton's article in The Telegraph "Protesters have got it all wrong on ME"

Maybe this isn't the best quote about our need for patient, dogged perseverance in holding out for a turn in the tide of true M.E. Awareness. 'Nut' is an emotive term, if anywhere near the Wesselyan lips! But through this long month of buffetings from the media, it made me smile and be even more determined to go on chipping away towards better awareness and better science for M.E.:

"The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground." ~Author Unknown

We must hold our ground. Peacefully. But with the most stubborn, unwavering determination and persistence. Nothing Wessely, or his sycophantic nay-saying echoes, can ever say or write will change the fact that M.E is a neurological, multi-systemic illness, needing much more of an organic scientific cure than a sticking plaster of CBT/GET.

We have truth on our side, and need to pull together with the little sparks of strength we can muster, against all these odds.

Lucretius puts it another way:

'The drops of rain make a hole in the stone not by violence but by oft falling.'

I feel like a drip or a nut this weekend. Don't we all? But the stone is not impenetrable and this little oak's still willing to struggle its way towards the clearing above. 

Links to various other responses to the articles:
 
The big issue: Extremism has no place in the quest to find a cure for ME

Professor Malcolm Hooper's full response to Observer reported in Dancing with the Sandman's blog today

M.E. in the media: the aftershocks continue

All the news that's unfit to print?

Earthquakes always have aftershocks, don't they? Just read this in 'The Times Higher Educational Supplement' online.

Just when we were starting to think that maybe, just maybe, certain muck-spreaders and mischief-mongers (oh no, could that be counted as a death threat?) had done their worst, the Times Higher Ed decides to recycle the recent press feeding frenzy and now to concertina all the accusations into one punchy paragraph.

I haven't the strength left to be surprised or disappointed (does that make me mentally unbalanced, I wonder?) It's the same old, same old, compressed into a handy pill-sized gobbet of "news" summary that makes it look like irrefutable fact.

Surely these unnamed hordes of M.E. suffering extremists must have a hell of a lot more energy than you or I to terrorise the poor ickle psychs like this?

I quote, peeping through my fingers:

• Scientists researching chronic fatigue syndrome - also known as myalgic encephalomyelitis, or ME - are being targeted by activists who are now as dangerous as animal rights extremists, it has been claimed. The militants, who object to any suggestion that the illness has psychological causes, have turned up at lectures with knives, punched scientists in the street and issued death threats, it was reported on 21 August. They are also said to have bombarded researchers with Freedom of Information requests, made countless complaints to university ethics committees, and falsely alleged that scientists pursuing work in the subject are in the pay of drug and insurance companies. Myra McClure, head of infectious diseases at Imperial College London, told The Observer: "I published a study which these extremists did not like and was subjected to a staggering volley of horrible abuse. One man wrote he was having pleasure imagining that he was watching me drown. He sent that every day for months."

www.timeshighereducation.co.uk


Sadly, this is neither higher, nor educational.

Hopefully not to the psychiatric school beginning with "W"!

N.B. There was also a cartoon to go with the Times Higher Ed article, but this was later withdrawn. Hopefully they will not later claim this was because they received death threats!
If your health and blood pressure are up to it, the said cartoon can be seen here. Thanks to Dr Speedy at Niceguidelines blogspot for preserving a link to it for the sake of truth!



Many thanks for the 'heads up' about the THES article from @Velogubbed on Twitter. Her own wonderful M.E. and writing related blog can be enjoyed here:


http://velo-gubbed-legs.blogspot.com/

If you haven't read her fantastic book about her life with M.E. yet, please do yourself a favour and put that right: 'The State of Me' by Nasim Marie Jafry is available on Amazon and good bookshops.

M.E. in the media: why let the truth get in the way of a good story?

Myalgic Encephalomyelitis is not a mental disorder.

Let me start with the simple fact. Medical research has shown it. The World Health Organisation has recognised it. Everyone with M.E. knows it to their cost. How much simpler it would be if we could walk away from M.E. after a cosy chat about our "illness beliefs" and a few phased-in press-ups!

No right-thinking M.E. sufferer wants anything but a cure and their former health back. For children and young people who never knew a healthy life before M.E. struck, just the cure and a happy normal future would do.


We do not want psychiatrists harmed or threatened. Of course not! What are people thinking? Like me, none but a handful of (as yet curiously unnamed) desperately sick individuals at the end of their tether, would wish harm on anybody. Let alone issue death threats. This is appalling to us all.

But smokescreen coverage of the "victimisation" of those seeking to turn back the clock to the days when the mistaken insult "Yuppie Flu" reigned in the minds of a largely uninformed public, has pothered up around the illness that has stolen our lives and livelihoods for so long on a daily basis. While this mass media story goes viral, it is in danger of snuffing out bona fide campaigning for scientific medical progress into M.E. treatment and cure. That would be the real tragedy.

M.E. is not a mental disorder.

It bears no resemblance to bi-polar depression, Munchhausen's By Proxy, schizophrenia or any other mental illness. Any more than M.S. was ever really "hysterical paralysis" or Tuberculosis was ever cured by shoving dying men and women out into the sun to do them good in spite of their wrong "illness beliefs"!


M.E. is NOT a mental disorder.


There seems no end of confusion about this fact. Not helped by the recent onslaught of misinformation, half-truths and lies in the media.

Let me repeat in case anybody is still in doubt:

 M.E. is not a mental disorder.

I understand the confusion. There's a whole Tower of Babel being erected in the press with a confusion of voices shouting from their own corners out of vested interest.

Scientific research is costly. More costly than the cheap talking therapies and often hugely damaging regimes of exercise forced on muscles and mitochondria that are made all the more sick by such tactics. Those M.E. patients like myself who have always driven ourselves to our limits however we felt, have already discovered to our cost the dire consequences of such determination to show our bodies "tough love"!


Scientific biomedical research into M.E. is expensive. But it's not a luxury. It is vital.

So far it has shown the truth that M.E. is a physical illness, not some vague conglomeration of imaginary symptoms making sufferers turn from hard-working, articulate, driven, fully-functioning pillars of society into benefit-bludging, lazy hypochondriacs. Who on earth do you think you are labelling? Are your memories so pathetically short? Where were you knockers, disbelievers and haters when we were saving your lives in the operating theatre or baptising your babies, successfully fighting your lawsuits or striding along optimistically helping to change the world where we all paid tax while we could? That was us M.E. sufferers, just like you! We were (and would love to be again!) your co-workers, crisis solvers and your children!

Recent articles in papers like the Sunday Times and Observer, may have misled you. They probably intended to. By doing so they enable the government, DWP and paid psychiatrists to feel justified in forcing some of the sickest and most vulnerable people in our society, with an illness every bit as disabling as M.S. or polio, into work they are too fluctuatingly, severely ill to fulfil without relapse, or into cheap and ineffective forms of treatment, which is actually designed to manage mental health problems, or psychosomatic syndromes yet often causes M.E. patients to crash and burn.

These treatments include the cheap-to-fund non-invasive and unscientific cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) or graded exercise therapy (GET) aimed at weaning patients off damaging sickness-perpetuating habits and thought patterns. This does not work with physiological, multi-systemic diseases like M.E., M.S., Cancer, Tuberculosis, Polio, Myasthenia Gravis or Diabetes Mellitus. So why is this the only funded "treatment" available for M.E.? Why? How can our mental aberrations make us too dangerous to donate blood?



Contrary to what has been stated in the media, please listen to the words and understand:

Neurological DOES NOT mean neurotic. 


 Physical disease DOES NOT mean psychological disease.

Physiological illness DOES NOT mean psychosomatic illness.


It really is that simple.

M.E. has been classified by the World Health Organisation and M.E. researchers who are not tied to proving a money-saving, non-scientific theory to keep truthful enquiry at bay as follows:

a serious multi-system neuroimmune disorder affecting the central, autonomic and peripheral nervous systems as well as the immune, cardiovascular, respiratory, neuroendocrine, gastrointestinal, musculo-skeletal, visual and reproductive systems. 


Is that clear enough?

Yet again the papers have rushed into a feeding frenzy on the say-so of certain individuals, borrowing each others' tag lines and taking the easy route to a sensational story.

Why let the truth get in the way of a good story?


Why?

Unfortunately it's too late to ask those who have already died of the effects of M.E. like Sophie Mirza, Lynn Gilderdale and others who make up the 3% of M.E. patients for whom it proves fatal with deaths due to tumours, cardiac failure, brain death and liver failure, sudden collapse after overexertion or exercise and the effects of a slowly worsening illness or, horrifyingly in the 21st century, inappropriate medical "care". Around 30% of M.E. cases are progressive and degenerative. More info on these stats: The Hummingbirds' Foundation for M.E.


Why let the truth get in the way of a good story? I think we all know by now why it must not be allowed to.

Let's go on raising awareness of M.E. in whatever peaceful, respectful but dog-with-a-bone determined ways we can, if we can, whenever and however we can.

If you're still in doubt how medical science is still being ignored at the highest level of UK decision-making in favour of the dangerously contrary all-in-the-mind model of M.E., you can read this post in the excellent blog Dancing with the Sandman:


Letters from Malcolm Hooper Emeritus Professor of Medicinal Chemistry University of Sunderland, to Iain Duncan Smith MP DWP and Andrew Lansley MP Sec of State for Health

The Truth Is Out There!

The Truth Is Out There. The Truth About M.E./CFS/CFIDS.

But some powerful bum steers have hit the tarmac with a bigger bang, since last I wrote.


Did anybody else notice how soon after the news of Dr Myhill's exoneration of all misconduct charges by the General Medical Council, the pernicious nonsense peddled by Prof Simon Wessely hit the papers? Of course you did!


BBC News covers "victim" Wessely


Daily Mail covers "victim" Wessely


The Economist (where will this end???) covers "victim" Wessely


Top News US covers "victim" Wessely


Visit Bulgaria covers "victim" Wessely

Top News New Zealand covers "victim" Wessely 

Followed up by the slack journalism in the Times by Stephanie Marsh on Aug 6th 
Doctor's hate mail is sent by the people he tried to cure 

and the hackery of Rod Liddle on 31st July with his dismissively mocking
Shoot the medical messenger - see if that'll cure you

So that's pretty much worldwide coverage, then. Raising awareness of M.E.? Sadly, for all the wrong, mistaken reasons. How now to explain all this to friends, neighbours and strangers who have taken this new story on board over their cornflakes, I can't begin to know. 

Happily, most of them already know how little this is a state of mind, and those who knew me before I was ill, understand how the physical illness I fought for years finally took its worst toll, thriving on my opposition to lying down under its tyranny!

A few calculated words from a man who knows full well that time will prove him wrong, and has all the painful fight for M.E. research been swept away in a tide of headline-grabbing rhetoric and half-truths?

A drop of misinformation in already muddied waters. The ripples from this one have gone far indeed!

Amazing how, suddenly, all the decades of research on the physical causes and deeper understanding of this crushingly painful, debilitating neurological multi-systemic disease  (that definition's NOT coming from M.E. patients, but from scientists, researchers, doctors and the World Health Organisation who must also be insulted and mystified that Simon Wessely is now a self-proclaimed "leading expert in M.E.' ???) which rarely gets a mention in the media, has been outstripped by an outmoded and, franky, wholly incorrect analysis of the disease!



You know by now, I'm an optimist. My optimism hasn't been so sorely tried in the years since M.E. (not that woolly umbrella that lets the poison rain in, called "CFS") was diagnosed in my case. I was full of life, optimism, joy, hard work, fun, plans. I still am, ready for when M.E. ceases to pull the carpet unexpectedly from under me.

These articles have made me determined, after a period of sober reflection, that there is all the more need for those of us who can, to keep positive and do all we can to go on holding out for the day when the truth is known and the correct treatments and cures will finally come our way. Sadly for those like Sophie Mirza and Lynn Gilderdale, it will come too late.


The Truth is Out There. 

Not just on the X Files, either.

Professor Wessely knows it, and maybe that's why he has used what influence he has with the media and government to rekindle old ideas and theories about M.E. (experts have called it that, incidentally, not those of us who didn't know any name for the disease that snatched our lives and livelihoods away) that distract the eyes of the world from what is right under its nose, with horrifying sensationalism and sleight of hand.


The Truth is Out There.

We have to keep on believing that, and not letting playground bullies kick us when we are furthest down! Sticks and stones may hurt our bones (if not as much as M.E.!) but calling will not hurt us (when we've stopped weeping in disbelief at the lies levelled at derailing real scientific enquiry!)


Much has already been written to point out the glaring errors in these articles. I've been so thankful for them. We all have:


Actual BBC caller suffering from M.E. speaks the truth

Niceguidelines.blogspot.com - one of so many excellent posts 

Letter on MEA Website 


Letters responding to Rod Liddle's article in The Sunday Times


I have pushed myself to the maximun over the last few weeks. Doing a tiny part of what used to be my full-time vocation, now vountarily and with consequences that make me immobile and inarticuate now for ages afterwards. Receiving those visitors who can only get away to see me in the summer. Luckily they understand my limitations!


All in my head? I think we all know it isn't, whatever we read in the papers. Or hear from little green men.

Some Mothers Do Ave ME

Daily Mail article about Michael Crawford's long slow recovery from M.E.

TBH I'm struggling to concentrate, sit up, balance, etc for more than a few minutes at a time, today. But on the whole, apart from exhaustion, nerve pain, balance and co-ordination issues that have dogged me rather this week since I took a service  for a single hour the week before last, it's been a good week. The joy of friendships and the start of Lent, spring flowers, laughter and all life's sweetness makes up for the M.E.-sodden bits of life! It does for yours truly, anyway!


But I wanted to share this today. I spotted this article in the online Daily Mail (Please see link above).


It's an encouragingly honest article by actor, comedian and singer Michael Crawford, beloved by my generation as bumbling Frank Spencer on 70s sitcom "Some Mothers Do Ave Em".

Michael tells of how he was stricken by M.E. when, like many of us, overwork and getting run down  (in his case the final trigger was working in a hot padded "fat" suit!) led to a virus that triggered his immune system's meltdown into M.E.

He found himself unable to pick up, even though previously so fit, after a bout of seemingly innocuous flu. That had happened to me, too in the Autumn of 2005. Well, the flu did. And the meltdown into M.E. Not the padded fat suit!


Michael had his worst period of "bust/crash" of M.E. for a whole seven years. During this time, like me, he sometimes wondered if his career was over. He retreated to complete rest and recuperation in New Zealand, allowing his body time to recover in its own way, as I'm also in the middle of doing, though I am only now just over five years into recovery. I hope by the time I get to the seventh year, I too will be back to cooking with energetic gas, like Michael, forever, or however long a "boom" of recovery I'm granted.

I'm well aware, with all the different sub-types of M.E we suffer, not all of us can achieve such a remission. Some have never had health and freedom from M.E. from a young age. I always count myself very blessed and fortunate to have been able to do so much, achieve so many of my goals before being floored by M.E.in my 40s (though it was tapping on my shoulder much longer than that, of course!).

Like many of us, Michael took the time to alter his diet to as healthy an option as possible to give his body all the help he could. I lost six stones in the time I've had M.E. (it was the debility of M.E. that slapped the weight on me in the first place of course.) One of the few "advantages" M.E. has given me is the space to sort out my Type 1 diabetes, which, although still unpredicatably erratic with unannounced hypoglycaemia at any hour of day or night, at least now is better controlled through carbohydrate counting than at any time during my adult/working life.

I bless Michael for sharing his own journey and his story all too familiar to at least some of us with M.E., those who are neither the least nor the most severely of all affected. I know some of the most severely affected find yet another story of celebrity M.E. recovery in the media is more than a little hard to swallow, and my heart goes out to all who feel this way. This is not an easy road, and the media has so long mocked and ridiculed M.E. sufferers that the resilient humour of many is tried to the limit.

Read the link and judge for yourselves.

From my personal point of view, his story inspires me. It gives me a chink of hope in the clouds of future uncertainty. In my own long, long slow miracle of painfully slow progress towards recovery, looking back on the little ways I can be useful now that were closed to me just a year ago as my career and life slipped through my grasp, I see hope that I too can dance on life's stage again, restored to some semblance of my former self!

God bless you, Michael. Be gentle with yourself and enjoy every moment of your new lease of life!

ME patients blood donor ban

"A pint, that's very nearly an armful!" as Tony Hancock lugubriously put it in his classic "The Blood Donor" sketch.

I'm off this morning to give blood. Just in connection with the usual round of tests for my Type 1 diabetes. Not as a donor, ever again, it seems by today's BBC headline. Today my blood was officially declared unfit to grace the veins of anyone but myself!

Click to read "M.E. PATIENTS FACE UK BAN ON DONATING BLOOD" 

M.E. doesn't make the news every day. When it does, the invisible community of M.E. patients often breathes a collective sigh of dread, if they are up to it. We wonder, what will the media manage to mock in the latest headline?

-Will there be a new way of getting a laugh out of "Yuppy Flu"? 
-Will there be a new raft of arguments about the research required to get to the root of M.E.'s neurological causes?
-Will XMRV (xenotropic murine leukemia virus-related virus) be thumbs up or thumbs down as the culprit this time?
-Or will we shudder with impotent grief at another wave of generalised attack aimed at real benefit bludgers, who, of course, some misinformed angry people will see as including all those hardworking, taxpaying members of society who from this devastating illness and others find themselves forced to claim invalidity benefit reluctantly, completely against their nature or aspirations?

Blogging for a few minutes on a good day or preaching for an hour a month does not, believe it or not, constitute the abilty to work full or often even part time. If only! I know, because year after year before diagnosis I drove myself back to working  again and again before another complete collapse.

It got to the point when I was so obviously ill to all my colleagues and parishoners around me, they used to beg me to leave late meetings early. I so hate letting people down that I was thrown into despair at how to do all I was obliged and delighted normally to do while my body and mind were unable to stay upright, too sick with disorientating exhaustion to sleep, caught in crippling pain, uncoordinated, feverish, spaced out, dizzy and nauseous and increasingly unable to perform all the work I so love, or indeed, any work consistently.

Today the headline leaves no doubt. M.E. is real. So real that the health authorities are banning all M.E. patients, in a crash or in remission (i.e."cured" enough to function for a period, hopefully indefinitely or permanently, in "boom" after "bust"), from giving blood. One day soon, we will know exactly what virus or gene is triggering this hellish disease and be in a position to conquer it. (Though cancer and the common cold give us less optimism to hold our breath for that in our lifetimes!). I'm an optimist, though, and I have to believe these headlines are little beacons on the way.

Meanwhile I will go on doing what I can to pace myself into another period of remission. My prayer is that when it comes, it will be forever. My determination is that on that day, I will not be sucked into the arrogance of the "cured" which harangues those still gripped by the illness to "do what I did, and look, I'm fine". 

If I had done that every time in my life when I too appeared "cured" when in remission, I would have hurt and possibly destroyed the hope and joy in many with whom I can now empathise.

Together, one day, we will dance in the sunshine and have our full lives restored to us and be more than overjoyed to graft gleefully in the valleys where we are needed.

Maybe one day, too, we will be able to give "very nearly an armful" again to save our neighbour.