JOBCENTRE WRAG-TIME a poem

I went to the local Jobcentre

With painkillers, stick and bag

I had to go, fearing sanctions

Cos I've gone and been put in the "WRAG."

It makes me feel poorly on buses

But with hypos I mustn't drive,

So I stumbled in all of a-tremble,

And barely a quarter alive.

It took me all my precious "spoons"

To balance and to breathe,

I had to watch the pavement

As it starts to shift and seethe.

My 80 year old mother came

To help me open doors

Which invariably seem to stick

Defying gravity's laws.

My appointment was half past eleven,

Though I hadn't slept night after night.

My legs felt as wobbly as rubber

I was sickened by motion and light.

But the Jobcentre seemed rather quiet

With everyone there in their place,

No loud noises were blorting to hurt me

Which was abso-bloomin-lutely ace.

A lass who was wearing a label

Which I guess spelled out her name

Started asking me what was my business

And the reason that I came?

I explained I'm in the “WRAG” group

And I had to meet the girl

Who's my “Personal Adviser”

Who I'll call, for rhyme's sake, “Shirl.”

She looked me up, she looked me down,

She showed me to a chair,

Where in pain I tried to balance

Near to others who were there.

Some were reading adverts,

While others filled in forms,

Some jiggled kids in pushchairs

While others stifled yawns.

But everyone seemed friendly,

Efficient, polite and calm,

And as I got my breath back

One young woman touched my arm.

She said my name and greeted me

And helped me cross the carpet,

Pulled out a chair to help me

Cos by now my “spoons” had scarpered!

She reassured me from the off

She wasn't there to press me,

ATOS had done what ATOS do,

Here no one would undress me

Or frown and say “M.E.? What's that?”

You look fit as a fiddle!”

She listened and she understood

(Not influenced by Rod Liddle!)

I didn't wear my dog-collar,

So I was a bit astounded,

She knew the kind of help I'd need,

Advice was wise and grounded.

She tapped on her computer screen

To calculate & compare,

If work from home might pay at all

What hours, what skills to share.

She knew from my work history

I wasn't one for shirking,

She knew that were I well enough

I'd much rather be working.

She totted up the hours

I could work or volunteer,

On top of what I manage now,

If better health were here.

She built on what my skills are

To make helpful suggestions,

She let me pace things as we talked

And answered all my questions

She learned about my brainfog

And saw it one-to-one,

She's the face among the faceless,

I was really glad I'd gone!

I asked if I had to see her

Every month from here on in,

She said it would not be needed,

(My knees must've met my chin!)

I could call her number any time

For any advice at all,

It should be another year or more

Till my next medical call.

She was honest about W.R.B.

And all the uncertain changes,

She well understood her clients' fears

And the future's scary dangers,

So clued up and supportive,

She went out of her way

To fetch me a pack to make a claim

If needed, for DLA.

Since then I've heard two other friends

At different JCPs,

Have also had this kind of help

In different degrees.

Although it took days to recover,

From this trip to the “bowels of hell”,

I consider myself very fortunate

I've a positive tale to tell.

Before you say, “yes but, no but,

ESA's just for a year.”

I must meet that bridge when I come to it,

I'm thankful for now and here.

For now, I was saved an unequal fight

To be put in the group for “support”,

Not terminal ill, not yet a corpse,

I guess I've been put where I ought.

I know the harsh rules of D.W.P.

Won't find me a miracle cure,

With their strict time-limitation,

But the future is seldom sure!

We can only live in the moment,

And fight on for those with no voice,

Play fair even when we've been diddled,

Or grow bitter and bolshy by choice.

Back at home I was soon reminded,

How true were the things we'd discussed,

How far I am from “fit for work”

The adrenalin soon repercussed.

I slept till the daylight was dying,

As body and brain disengages

With the payback from that short journey

I just couldn't function for ages.

But at least one Jobcentre employee,

Understands disability more,

Has more now of M.E. awareness,

It won't stop me fighting injustice,

With others whom ATOS have harmed,

But I went to the WRAG, and I learned some,

As with all things, forewarned is forearmed.

Today's the day! So will the Lords do the only right thing?

So today's the day. The last chance for the Lords to vote for an amendment to call for a pause to the proposed changes to DLA (Disability Living Allowance). If not it will be seamlessly morphed into the unfit for purpose PIP (no, not the dodgy boob implants, the equally dodgy Personal Independence Payment!) that may well make unbearable and unlivable the lives of the most vulnerable disabled citizens in our country. They were promised they would never be betrayed. Through the tireless efforts of the disabled through the "Responsible Reform" Report, a new amendment has been tabled.

Again this is the eleventh hour. Again the disabled are fighting for their lives.

With M.E., plus Type 1 Diabetes with frequent severe and unannounced hypos, it has taken all my strength and last shred of dignity just to be transferred from IB to ESA. Even though incompetent and duplicitous ATOS have now plopped me unceremoniously into the incorrect WRAG (Work Related Activity Group), I'm pathetically relieved and thankful they deemed me of limited capability for work at all, given the current level of wrong decisions going to appeal. When I turn up crashed, brainfogged and crippled in my dogcollar at the Jobcentre again, we'll see exactly where their areas of expertise lie.

I have never applied for DLA (Disability Living Allowance) myself, just because, although I have long periods when I seem to fit its most stringent criteria, I find it hard enough to claim the ESA I need to survive, without having yet another ongoing claim where officials can look on me as if I have crawled out from under a stone. If I can manage, I will. The criteria for qualification for PIP were released yesterday here.

I am often like Katy in Case Study 1, but living alone. In that scenario I would qualify for PIP with "enhanced rate Daily Living component" and "enhanced rate Mobility component". At other periods my health may mean I more resemble Rachel in Case Study 2 who qualifies for nothing. Sorry my fluctuating serious lifelong illnesses are inconvenient enough not to fit the tick boxes. Sorry my body refuses to a)recover or b) die for your convenience! No wonder I daren't apply!

The whole PIP assessment thresholds leave you confused and despairing at the sheer lack of coherence and understanding of disability. There is so much emphasis on the upper body that you have to ask yourself if the DWP think all disabled people are mermaids, without legs or crotch.

Ironically, if I can go back to work, the fluctuating and lifelong conditions I have mean I might probably need to claim DLA for extra transport and mobility costs, etc. One day, any one of us might.

So here's the email I've just sent to about 90 Crossbench peers, following a flurry of tweets last night.

If the Government don't tamper with any more balls, sanity and victory may be almost within our grasp!

Email to Crossbench peers:

This morning, the following amendment has been tabled :

Clause 80 - Amendment 50E
BARONESS GREY-THOMPSON
BARONESS WILKINS
LORD LOW OF DALSTON
BARONESS CAMPBELL OF SURBITON

Page 58, line 26, at end insert—

“( ) The Secretary of State must lay before Parliament an independent review of the plans for implementation of the assessments under section 79 before the provisions are brought into effect, and such plans must in particular provide for—

(a) a trial period before any assessment process is implemented fully for new applicants and those transferring from DLA;

(b) disabled persons organisations to be involved in formulating the assessment process.

On behalf of all genuinely sick and disabled people, their families and carers , may I ask you to make it an urgent priority today to vote for this vital amendment to the Welfare Reform Bill?

Following the wise, compassionate and reasoned “Responsible Reform” (also known as the Spartacus Report), the rest of society is starting to grasp the deeply flawed nature of the proposed reforms as they stand. Without a pause today, devastating and unjust changes will be rushed into law. The amendment calls for a pause to reconsider and amend before it is too late. 

We all understand how essential is giving disabled citizens a life that is not just barely tolerable, but which gives them a chance to thrive and enable them to use all their gifts and talents to enrich society, while having quality of life themselves with all their added costs and difficulties in accessing what others take for granted. The Welfare Reform Bill as it stands, without serious amendments, will cost the country so much more in the long run than has been mendaciously suggested by some.

I respectfully beg you to help by doing your part to understand the real issues and vote for what is right.

Thank you so much for your time and attention,

yours sincerely,

etc

Sent to: andrew@amawsonpartnerships.com,
alastair@aberdares.co.uk,
adebowalev@parliament.uk,
afsharh@parliament.uk,
michael.allenby@btinternet.com,
altond@parliament.uk,
amosv@parliament.uk,
armstrongr@parliament.uk,
best@parliament.uk,
p.bew@qub.ac.uk,
abhatia@casley.co.uk,
bilimoria@parliament.uk,
birtj@parliament.uk,
BOOTHROYD@parliament.uk,
brabazoni@parliament.uk,
bramallen@parliament.uk,
lady.briggs@googlemail.com,
butlerslosse@parliament.uk,
campbelljs@parliament.uk,
carswellr@parliament.uk,
deechr@parliament.uk,
dafydd.elis-thomas@wales.gov.uk,
errollm@parliament.uk,
finlayi@parliament.uk,
freybergv@parliament.uk,
fritchiei@parliament.uk,
greenfieldsuuk,
greengrosss@parliament.uk,
greenwaya@parliament.uk,
greythompsont@parliament.uk,
crlguthrie@gmail.com,
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harriesr@parliament.uk,
hastingsm@parliament.uk,
haymanh@parliament.uk,
hennessyp@parliament.uk,
hoffmannl@parliament.uk,
HoggS@parliament.uk,
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ingep@parliament.uk,
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kakkara@parliament.uk,
lowc@parliament.uk,
LUCER@parliament.uk,
lord.mackay@scotcourts.gov.uk,
mancej@parliament.uk,
McFarlanej@parliament.uk,
marm@parliament.uk,
martinm@parliament.uk,
mawsona@parliament.uk,
meachermc@parliament.uk,
mckeem@parliament.uk,
murphyel@parliament.uk,
neubergerj@parliament.uk,
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northbournec@parliament.uk,
oloann@parliament.uk,
oneillm@parliament.uk,
ouseleyh@parliament.uk,
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patel_naren@hotmail.com,
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prasharu@parliament.uk,
ramsbothamd@parliament.uk,
richardsonk@parliament.uk,
rookerj@parliament.uk,
roperj@parliament.uk,
ROSSLYN@parliament.uk,
SaltounF@parliament.uk,
sandwichj@parliament.uk,
skidelskyr@parliament.uk,
dalrymplej@parliament.uk,
SternVH@parliament.uk,
dennis@hdstevenson.co.uk,
stirrupg@parliament.uk,
sutherlands@parliament.uk,
tanlaws@parliament.uk,
taylorjdb@parliament.uk,
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Brain-dead is a tragedy. Compassion-dead is a "lifestyle choice"

Sorry brain fog from yesterday's info meltdown overload reigns today. I will be mostly cutting and pasting two emails I managed to send yesterday to avoid complete incoherence today!

It was exhausting emotionally, but also exhilarating to watch the passionate, compassionate arguments from peers like Lord N Patel, Baroness Meacher, Lord McKenzie and others who last night voted to defeat three especially vicious aspects of the Coalition government's Welfare Reform Bill. The "Spartacus Report" and its tenacious disabled champions were instrumental in fighting for what's morally right over what is mean and mendacious.

It was dispiriting to find that the BBC was still obdurate in refusing to mention the Spartacus Report in any major bulletin, and its failure to report the government defeats in the Lords in more than a dismissive side note, way down the running order on News at Ten, with obvious spin to scupper the impact.

Even more devastating to hear that Lord Freud had tried "dirty tricks" tactics to override the earlier defeats in an unprecedented late night vote. And that he actually got away with it.

I managed two emails while adrenalin was driving my indignation last evening. Spoons have to be expended while the iron is hot, sometimes, even if it leads to crash and post exertional payback. Many noble disabled campaigners like Sue Marsh, Kaliya Franklin and many others, have fought altruistically for us all, and also made their own conditions worse in the process for the common good. They inspire us all.

I noted that Baroness Benjamin voted with the government, even after I lobbied her politely about ESA last month and the House of Lords sent me a postcard to say she had noted my letter. My fond memories of her on "Play School" are a bit tainted now, but never mind. She was on the losing side!

The first transcript here is a copy of a second email I have sent to my MP Kevin Barron, following the response I got on sending him a copy of the Spartacus Report on Monday, when he emailed me to say:

I have read the report this morning and I will do all I can to let the Government know of its conclusions.

Yours

Kevin Barron MP

I hoped to encourage him to build on the result of the Lords vote and maintain this impetus when the Bill comes back to the Commons:

Dear Mr Barron,

 

Thank you for your email reply yesterday and for your promise to do all you can to let the government know of its conclusions.

 

In line with the research and conclusions in the Responsible Reform Report, genuinely disabled citizens, including many of your own constituents here in Rother Valley, have been relieved and encouraged by today’s defeat of the government in the House of Lords in three votes on various key amendments: namely

 

-to retain automatic eligibility for ESA for young disabled people who are unable to work

-to impose a two year time limit for ESA claimants, overriding the government’s proposal that claimants be reassessed after 12 months

-to exempt cancer patients from the proposed ESA limit

 

I hope you will see, from the wise, compassionate and reasonable arguments raised today in the Lords against the demeaning and immoral nature of the current proposals for Welfare Reform, that it is vital such remarkable victories of civilised action are upheld and strengthened when they come back to the Commons. I look forward to seeing your continued support at that stage if you are able.

 

Thank you again for your support and help for the most vulnerable in our society,

 

your sincerely, etc

Then, to Chris Patten, BBC Chairman, to express concern at lack of coverage:

Dear Mr Patten,

 

Many people on the social networks this evening have been pointing out the obvious pro-Coalition bias of the ‘BBC News at Ten’ coverage of the Welfare Reform Bill currently being voted on in the House of Lords. It seemed pretty blatant, after the government suffered a triple defeat on amendments to protect young disabled people, cancer sufferers and to extend the period of time limited ESA, that the news item was being deliberately pushed down the order in order to “sink” the bad news. It was clear that papers were being shuffled and Huw Edwards was being fed questions to bias the reportage. Instead of the actual newsworthy defeat, viewers were treated to a smoke and mirrors whitewash making the whole thing seem like an embarrassing little blip. Somehow the piece was “spun” to blame the deficit on the disabled people affected, then to imply such a vote shows a need for reform of the House of Lords!

 

Exasperating as this is, it is a bias we see from the Corporation most of the time, and have reluctantly learned at least to tolerate. What is more chilling is the way the BBC News has deliberately failed to give any coverage to the “Responsible Reform” Report (popularly known as the “Spartacus Report”) released this week, revealing the Coalition’s mendacious misleading of the public on the facts of the Welfare Reform Bill. Why is this? The inflated license fee we pay for an ever diminishing handful of watchable “flagship” dramas and HD documentaries should surely buy us the basic right to expect coverage of issues the rest of the country can’t ignore? Just because some of these come in the wrong party colours, don’t toe the party line, or reveal the outright lies being fed to voters, surely this is hardly a valid reason for pretending they don’t exist in the rarefied air of BBC current affairs?

 

 

with thanks,

yours sincerely etc

 

One battle's sort of won. But the war's very far from over.

 

What we can never achieve alone, we can do together. Cos we are disabled, and we are Spartacus!

The dreaded DWP phonecall - but all is calm, all is bright (for now!)

It seems a crazy and contradictory situation to be thankful for being told you are "unfit for work". Does that make someone a scrounger or a conscientious realist? I hope you can understand my gratitude that for now, while I am too ill to leave bed or house some days, this is the best outcome for me for the time being.

An older gentleman from the DWP rang me this morning at 9.48am. I thought he was about to tell me I was being called in for a Work Capability Assessment (the much-criticised and humiliating DWP medical) carried out by ATOS.

On the contrary, he was very gentle and full of reassurance. Nothing to worry about, it was a "courtesy call" to tell me the outcome of my filling in the ESA50 last month. Because this is just a couple of days before the post shuts down over Christmas, he wanted me to know the outcome, just in case the official letter doesn't reach me in the next few days. He hopes it will come tomorrow, but can't be sure with the Christmas rush.

He explained that my migration from Invalidity Benefit (IB) to the new equivalent Employment and Support Allowance (ESA) has been successful. He also stated that I should not be contacted again for WCA for 18 months. The change over should happen about January 17th, and the rate will remain the same. I asked whether this meant Support Group (SG) or Work Related Activity Group (WRAG) and he said the latter, which is right, and what I had hoped.

This usually entails 6 Work Focused Interviews (WFI) with a personal adviser. These cover matters like dealing with your illness, acquiring skills, voluntary work etc that may help prepare for a future return to work. Basically, tackling any barriers that need to be overcome in order to return to employment. The sort of things always uppermost in my plans and the focus of my efforts even on my very worst days. (Also a more structured equivalent of the work related interviews I had in 2008 with a personal adviser at the local JCP in the weeks after my original claim once SSP had run out).

I will need to be careful to try and be well enough to attend these WFIs when called, as this is part of the contract, even though at the moment (until and if the hotly contested 1-year time limit on contributions-based ESA comes in through the Welfare Reform Bill in April 2012) there is no sanction if you cannot find a job by the end of the 6 WFIs. That is tomorrow's worry, even if it remains today's fight on behalf of all those who have not been fortunate enough to have been placed in the correct group. Please don't think this post is smug or triumphalist. I feel for everyone who has fallen foul of the deeply flawed system through no fault of their own.

Figures I have seen claim that, of those who apply for ESA:
6% - Support Group
16% - Work Related Activity Group
 36% -claim withdrawn
3% -  claims in progress
39% - "fit for work"

Sorry if these aren't the latest statistics. I've seen various figures quoted and am now so brain-fogged, I can't sift them for the most recent! This info is taken from here

Point I'm trying to make is I feel very fortunate I have been put in the WRAG, at least, just from medical information without the full ATOS medical. Perhaps they looked back at the one I had in 2008 and saw from my records that my illnesses (Type 1 diabetes, no hypo symptoms & M.E.) have not improved, and have in some ways deteriorated.

I would be interested to see the ESA85 medical report from which such a decision was taken, but won't do this with any intention to appeal. The support group is limited to very specific cases, and if the time comes when I fit those criteria, it will no doubt be apparent to those putting me through the various work-related hoops!

More determined than ever to keep trying to raise awareness and fight for the many people in dire need who have been cut adrift. When I was fit to work in years past, I always tried to be compassionate to those who were hardest hit in society. I won't be stopping now. Though at the moment, I must leave the blazing ferocity of the laptop screen and rest in a darkened room! Certain nightmares have been put on hold, for now. If I was any more thankful and grateful, my heart might well explode!

A voice crying in the wilderness?

The Welfare Reform Bill is now in the final stages of being read and voted through the House of Lords.

Yesterday came the dire news that under Universal Credit, all but the most severely disabled children's money will be halved. Yes - disabled children's means of support snatched away to pay for greedy bankers' mistakes. It is nearly Christmas. But tragically this isn't Dickens' "A Christmas Carol" we're reading in front of cosy fires. It's the reality of living in the UK.

This comes as we're still reeling from the announcement that cancer patients undergoing chemo are to face the shambolic humiliating pantomime of the Work Capability Assessment, that is proving so deeply flawed.

In more positive news, I got excited to see M.E. had crept into the midst of top news stories today. It was about BMJ Open's research here: BMJ Open: Unidentified CFS/ME is a major cause of school absence . The item on BBC Breakfast Time this morning can be watched here: BBC Breakfast : Chronic Fatigue Syndrome 'affects one in 100 pupils'

Can the Government continue to ignore and downplay M.E. after this? The cynic in me says of course they can. And will. The believer and fighter in me says, we have to move forward in hope and thankfulness. We can still light a candle in the dark.

Not wholly surprisingly, the impression viewers were left with is that M.E. is identical to the umbrella term "chronic fatigue symdrome"; and the mistaken myth that the disease myalgic encephalomyelitis can be cured in the shake of  lamb's tail by a spot of CBT and GET before being fully diagnosed.

Meanwhile, it's taken most of my spoons to get through the simplest tasks in the lead-up to Christmas. Last week I "paced" myself through sending, emailing, addressing, personalising my usual batch of around 200 cards. That put me out for the count for days afterwards.

On Saturday, with lots of support from my mum, I managed to put up a tiny nativity set on my window ledge and decorate our small tree that sits on the floor where I don't have to stretch much. Trailed tinsel round a few surfaces. Stuck the cards along the closed piano lid. Pinned "Peace on Earth" banner to one wall. Placed a few candles on the mantelpiece. That was all I could manage, and plenty to make the room look ready for the quiet time chronic sickness demands I spend. Don't get me wrong. Jesus' birthday will be filled with joy for me and mine just the same!

What energy and health "spoons" I've got left I used to cajole my addled braincells into writing a letter and an email to try and do my little bit to challenge the worst Scroogeliness of the Government.

First was a letter to Baroness Benjamin, Lib Dem peer in the House of Lords. Well, I used to watch her on BBC's children's programme 'Play School' playing with Hamble, Jemima and Big and Little Ted. Maybe she owes us one? Seriously, she has a heart for children. I wrote to ask her to oppose the proposed one year time-limiting of ESA (Employment and Support Allowance), which will impact on children within affected families too.

The second was an email to David Cameron, the PM. The Commons, not least his partner in crime Nick Clegg,  have been giving him a rough ride this week over his veto on the EU. Yesterday I did my part to encourage him to reconsider this halving of benefits to the families of disabled children. Neither issue may affect me directly, you may say. But, "we're all in this together" is true in my mind, even if David Cameron only mouths it when it suits. In the words of the Manic Street Preachers: "If you tolerate this, your children will be next."

Now we know this to be true, how can we stay silent?

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Letter sent to Baroness Benjamin (Lady Floella Benjamin) via the House of Lords:

Dear Lady Benjamin,

Time-limited Employment and Support Allowance: Welfare Reform Bill Report Stage & Third Reading

I am writing to ask if you would consider voting against time-limited Employment and Support Allowance (ESA)? The proposal is to limit this to just one year, and can still be opposed, I believe, in the coming Welfare Reform Bill Report Stage and Third Reading.

People with serious illnesses and disabilities are in despair at the prospect of being left with no income, scarcely able to function at home most days, let alone work. While I live alone, I feel I have to ask your help for others, including young people, who will be adversely affected by losing means tested ESA after twelve months if they live with somebody who happens to be fortunate enough to have an income at that time.

I am a Methodist Minister, ex-junior school teacher, formerly the first English Methodist Mission Partner to Sucre, Bolivia. In 2007 I was forced to retire from my calling and profession by the neurological auto-immune illness Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, against which I had already been battling for over a decade since contracting giardiasis working in South America. If ESA were to be limited to one year, it would imply some miraculous cure is envisaged by the Government within that year. 
 
Like me, many disabled people are unable to work, even were jobs actually available, through no fault or “lifestyle choice” of their own. 
 
People with serious, lifelong, degenerative or fluctuating relapsing-remitting conditions will all be affected by this, children, young people and adults alike. People with Multiple Sclerosis, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, some forms of Cancer, Parkinson’s Disease, Cardiovascular, Renal & Pulmonary Diseases, Mental Illness and many others will be left cut adrift from all hope and help, in spite of much empty rhetoric we hear to the contrary from Lord Freud and others. Meanwhile the media increasingly demonises all sick and disabled people and paints them with the same brush as benefit cheats and scroungers.

The one year time limit proposed for ESA is surely unfair and at best mystifying to right-thinking citizens? Where are the jobs or cures that make it reasonable or humane?

I know that at your Liberal Democrat conference earlier in the year, members voted overwhelmingly to oppose any such arbitrary ESA time limit. I respectfully plead with you, on behalf of all the genuinely long-term sick who are now living in dread of this, and so many other crushing blows from the Welfare Reform Bill, that you stand up for the most vulnerable members of society.

Many thanks for your understanding,
yours sincerely,
etc

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Email to David Cameron about cuts halving benefit to disabled children:


Concerning benefits for families with disabled children


Dear Prime Minister,

I am concerned about the 50% cut to benefits for many low income families with disabled children which was, to the horror of all right thinking citizens, voted through the Lords today.

Families with disabled children incur higher hidden costs, as I'm certain you know. These costs are worryingly high in wintertime. Many families with disabled children are forced to keep their heating on when mobility is impossible.

Any cuts to these household budgets already reined back to the bone are frankly inhumane. Your Government is proposing that within the Universal Credit, Disability Additions will be 50% lower than their current rate. £1400 less per year is more than these families can cope with. Why would you target unnecessary cuts at the most vulnerable disabled children?

I hope this Christmas you can find it in your heart to relent at the brink of this immoral and deadly mistake.
Yours sincerely etc

Why Are We Waiting? Carry On Up The ATOS Assessment Centre

I know how uncomfortable and step-ridden one of the ATOS Work Capability Assessment Centres in Northern England is. It's the one I had my last assessment at in late 2008 at which I was passed as unfit for work. There is a ramp, somewhere, allegedly, but you have to have eaten a Sat Nav to locate it, if memory serves. Which with brain fog, it most probably doesn't!

I heard today about another friend who had her WCA there this week. She was accompanied by her husband. She has had serious health problems for some time. After having to be off work frequently through no fault of her own (she has nurse training among other skills and was doing a job interviewing patients) there was some difficulty with her colleagues making her life hell because they were having to pick up extra duties in her absence. She's conscientious, hardworking and very caring. Nobody felt worse than she did about being in this position. As her condition deteriorated again, her doctors told her she would never work again and she was forced to leave her job permanently.

When she got to this ATOS Centre in the city, she found herself in the waiting area with another man. The man was obviously in some considerable discomfort because of the low chairs with no arms. The wait dragged on. And on. Apparently four of the ATOS Health Care Professionals on duty that day were off sick. Ironic but true.

Luckily, my friend had taken the necessary medicines with her to last through the lengthy wait. The other man, who was with his wife, was having to move around in his chair and stand from time to time as well as he was able, to relieve his pain. He explained to my friend that he was afraid his back and legs would go into spasm if he remained in the uncomfortable chair. I remember when I was there, if I could have got down and laid on the floor rather than balance, draining every last ounce of spoonie energy, I ached to do so. My friend could clearly see what agony he was in, as a nurse is trained to. Perhaps ATOS had hidden cameras to prove my friend "fit for work" because she could "diagnose" someone else's pain?

The man's wife asked the girl on reception how long the wait might be. She was curtly told that couldn't be divulged. The wife was almost in tears at the cavalier treatment of her husband. My friend, unable to ignore this (as a compassionate human being?) also asked the receptionist if maybe a cushion was available to relieve the man's predicament and perhaps elevate the seat a little? No surprise that this was also stonily refused. When my friend began to reason with the receptionist, asking: "Are you a nurse? Because I am, and I'm sorry but I can see he's in distress," the receptionist merely glared.

"No, I'm not," she snapped. There was a further lengthy wait till a small cushion eventually materialised.

We can be in no doubt now that we are, as Lord Freud so tellingly put it in the House of Lords Welfare Reform Debate, "stock" to the Government and their cohorts, not real citizens with skills, integrity or a history of  hardworking contribution to the world outside their windows.

My friend asked how many other "customers" (not her word!) were already in with the HCPs, to give the man an idea how long he would have to go on waiting. She was told it simply wasn't possible to say. (Nobody ring the fire alarm, then!) My friend politely but firmly persisted. She said she could understand the need for confidentiality, but could the girl just tell her if she was next in? This was grudgingly granted. She was indeed next in the queue.

"Then can this gentleman go in front of me? He's in agony!" said my friend, feeling this was the least she could do to help.

This was sanctioned. Not with particularly good grace or any modicum of proactive help on the part of the ATOS staff.

When my friend finally got into the office for her turn, after another long wait, the HCP at the computer terminal was a nurse. The nurse looked goggle eyed when my friend began to explain the name of her condition. She knew none of the symptoms and effects but tapped incredulously away at the screen. She didn't know the medicines prescribed or their side effects. Luckily my friend had all this at her fingertips, though she expressed a little surprise that the great detail about her disease she had taken the trouble to describe on the ESA50 form, seemed not to have filtered through to the HCP.

The HCP said dismissively: "I don't even know what you're talking about," as she had to have the name of my friend's condition spelled for her to type in.

"But I put all this down in detail on the form..." my friend began.

"Oh, WE don't get that." sneered the HCP impatiently. As if!

After hearing all about the illness, the ATOS woman concluded the appointment with: "I can't help with this, you'll need to come back again and see a doctor."

So my friend has to undergo a similar ordeal again in a couple of weeks, this time with a doctor ATOS HCP. Instead of this nurse ATOS HCP. If they'd actually bothered to read the form, and it wasn't just floating round in the ether for postal staff and/or Job Centre Plus non-HCPs to disregard, maybe this double ordeal could have been avoided.

But that's not the object of the exercise, is it? That would smack of respect and businesslike good sense, even compassion. And that, by all accounts, is disturbingly thin on the ground.

Meanwhile my friend is still more upset about how that other poor chap was treated, rather than herself. That's the nature of many "scroungers," "cheats" and "scum", you see. Genuine long-term illness changes us overnight from pillars of society to something the Government, media and increasingly society at large, believe they've just wiped off the sole of their shoes. I don't know how we ended up lying in the gutter, but nobody can stop us still caring, or looking at the stars.

Jon Snow on Channel 4 News: new knight in shining armour for the hardest hit

Still struggling to fill in my "ESA 50" aka "Limited Capability For Work Questionnaire" and send it back to the DWP before December 8th.

Briefly stopped crying and dying inside at the humiliating catalogue of all that's wrong with me being revealed on the dreaded unhelpful and endless 20 page form (again!) as I watched the Channel 4 news with Jon Snow tonight. New benefit system dogged by 'endless appeals' Stopped sobbing to see the spectacle of masterful Jon Snow ripping at the flabby underbelly of Employment Minister Chris Grayling's defence of the slow car crash that is the Welfare Reform Bill.

"You could halt this reassessment failure now," Mr Snow pressed Grayling like a bulldog worrying a wasp.

At long last, instead of the BBC's propaganda and outright lies, Channel 4 tells it like it is. Pray God it's not too late.

Elsewhere today, Lord Freud in the Lords sounded like a smug puppet who had lost his script as other peers asked him questions about the Bill for which he had no answers. Again. Questions he tried to sidestep or in the face of which he seemed to be trying to hypnotise his opponents into a stupor with his whining, ingratiating but wholly compassion-free voice. Slowly but surely, the tide must turn. Mustn't it?

This on the same day Channel 4 News also revealed proof government plans to privatise NHS. Well done, Channel 4. A voice in the wilderness, calling for the proud and privileged to turn around at the brink of the precipice. A call for those in power to avoid another national disaster, the outrageous scapegoating of the hardest hit and most vulnerable citizens. A call to sort out these flawed Work Capability Assessments and prevent a return to the dark ages of stigma and more suicides for those wrongly labelled the "undeserving poor," left with no scrap of hope or means to face the future.

Thanks, Jon Snow and the Channel 4 team for helping me wipe the tears from my eyes and see more clearly again.

Back to the form. Courage. I can do this, whatever the outcome. Just knowing the truth is out there, whatever double speak and spin Big Brother Cameron chooses to put on it.